Apr 5, 2011

My near-brush with messing up my diet.

Anyone who has been reading this blog for as long as I have had it, knows that I have been dieting on and off for years.  I have had much success with different types of diets, but as soon as I lost some weight, it went right back on.  I have a problem with stress eating.  I am an emotional eater, and that leads to my gaining weight again when I go through difficult times.  There are days I feel like I will never lose the weight because of my emotional eating, especially when stress is inevitable on a daily basis;  it's a natural part of my life now.  Stress with the kids, stress with finances, stress with work, stress with being social...it is something that I just can never get used to.

As I said, my natural coping mechanism for these things is to eat and today is so difficult.  I had a very stressful day with my kids and my mom, I ended up having to run errands after I picked Alayna up from school, and we ended up at Wendys after running around.  That is really our last option, when I have bad a busy morning, and I did have to work this afternoon so it was our only option.  I did well, I ate a half size salad, but when I got home the temptation from the fries was absolutely horrible.  


They're dangerous to me, even more than cheeseburgers or chicken nuggets.  Fries are really something that can break my diet.  I keep trying to remind myself that after I lose the weight, the fries will still be there.  Keeping my mind set on the fact that I have been trying to lose this weight for years, and it is the time to focus on that and not let stupid fries divert my attention or mess me up.  I have to keep my mind on the end result, and then I can have fries occasionally if I want.  Dieting is changing my life for myself and my kids.  I can't eat unhealthy food anymore and neither can my kids.  I want to be a good role model for us all and want to introduce them to a variety of foods.  It is hard when I am working, but thank God I work from home.  I can get more done in between what I do for work.

I know I can do it, it is just so difficult to keep motivated with all the temptations around me.  At least I did press through and got past my french fry temptation today.  I stuck to my salad, and even though I'm a little upset I cant have the fries, I feel great that I did not cave.

What foods are your weakness?  Is anyone else watching what they eat?